Monthly Archives: April 2015

4/19/15

I surprisingly had a good weekend and I’ve been in a really good mood since Thursday when that damn light switch in my brain turned on and made the depression go away.  I’ve actually gone out and done stuff and … Continue reading

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The “Joys” of Bipolar

I seriously hate having bipolar disorder.  After 3 weeks of some of the most insufferable depression I’ve had in a long time, almost to the brink of hurting myself or going to the hospital, I woke up yesterday feeling great … Continue reading

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4/13/15

I can’t handle the pain anymore.  I just can’t deal with this I want it to all go away I want everyone to leave me alone and let me hide forever stop asking me how I’m doing because I’m tired … Continue reading

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4/10/15

Back to feeling like complete shit the depression is eating away at me.  I feel nauseous and sick to my stomach, cold, and like my heart is racing a thousand miles an hour.  I just want to crawl into bed … Continue reading

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4/8/15

Been feeling slightly better over the course of the past few days compared to Saturday.  I am still struggling with the depression of course, as that never has gone away, and all the negative thoughts that come with it, but … Continue reading

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Scared

I’m spiraling out of control tonight I can feel myself unraveling people are telling me to go to the emergency room even a 72 hour stay but I just can’t.  I don’t want to go.  I’m so over hospital stays … Continue reading

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Done

I’m done. I just can’t anymore.  I feel myself slipping back into that deep dark hole I feel sick to my stomach.  Today was the first day since Sunday that I haven’t taken a Klonopin.  I might need one to … Continue reading

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