Category Archives: Depression

If I Die Young

“A penny for my thoughts, oh, no, I’ll sell ’em for a dollar They’re worth so much more after I’m a goner And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’ Funny when you’re dead how people start listenin’” … Continue reading

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Carousel – I can’t get off

She can’t hide no matter how hard she tries Her secret disguised behind the lies And at night she cries away her pride With eyes shut tight staring at her inside All her friends know why she can’t sleep at … Continue reading

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Update

It’s been a while since I posted here… things have actually being going pretty well considering all that I’ve been through in the past few years. I got a case manager and peer specialist, and they helped me apply for … Continue reading

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The past 2 weeks

Wow… the past two weeks have been a blur of confusion, terror, and frustration. As insinuated by my previous posts, I was incredibly depressed and near the breaking point of suicide. I felt as if I was losing control and … Continue reading

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Letter

Dear V, It’s been 14 years since you left this earth and each day is just as hard as the previous. Some days I don’t think about you, and other days I feel guilty for not thinking about you. I … Continue reading

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Year #14

It’s that time of year again. The fourteenth year in a row where I don’t know how to grieve properly. My best friend died on March 4, 2000 when we were in the 8th grade. He was struck by a … Continue reading

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Tired

It’s amazing how much a person can sleep when they’re depressed. I feel that all I do is sleep. The outside world is intimidating and scary and not a place I want to be. The smallest things exhaust me, even … Continue reading

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